Good Morning Loves,
Many of you have already read my 3rd release Serene Chaos. If you haven't let me just say the reviews have spoken and its a recommended, captivating soul snatcher. I'm thankful that you have supported me after 3 releases, I didn't see this one coming. Nonetheless, its here and LIVE!
The goal of most of my stories is to connect with you, the reader. This novel forced my creativity because unlike Did you think I'd Crumble me and Serene are not completely one in the same.
Today I wanted to point out some very real points about our lovely, nerve working Serene. If you've read the novel, you will understand exactly where i'm coming from and if not it will all make sense when you do.
"Hard like stone, ebony colored brown"
1. Validation: recognition or affirmation that a person or their feelings or opinions are valid or worthwhile.
- Serene is an only child to her knowledge and I can only imagine how hard it is to have all the attention on you. Her mother Elaine only enhanced that attention due to her own issues and in part 2 you will find out why.
Serene desperately wanted her mothers approval for something, hell anything. Have you ever needed to hear "I'm proud of you" instead of "You shouldn't do this", "You need to change this" , "Why did you do that?", What made you do this", my favorite of all time is "I cant believe you did that!"
"She and Elaine had a rocky but solid relationship. Being the only child was hard on her. Elaine put her all into her, sometimes her watchful eye and condescending tone left her feeling inadequate. Her mother didn’t take any shit and she didn’t offer up second chances. And if she did, Elaine made her feel stupid about the choices she made. Her mother never tried to understand what was going on with her. She only talked at her and told her what she should and shouldn’t be doing instead of giving her valuable life lessons."
One thing always leads into another and so on and on and that leads us to our second point about Serene. Provide your own validation! Congratulate yourself! The validation you are desperately seeking may never come from outsiders!
(hard pill to swallow, just get a glass of water)
2. Sex Addiction: characterized by compulsive participation or engagement in sexual activity, particularly sexual intercourse, despite negative consequences
I pulled this one out of the air, well not really. (Moment of Honesty) Serene is like me a lot on this one. NO, I have never been a sex addict. But I can attest to being wild for a period of my life when it came to men. After my divorce I went buck wild, I thought I was enjoying myself or proving a point. Same for Serene, she had so much stored in her that this is what she resorted too. Everyone copes differently and her lack of control over her life pushed her to promiscuity.
Lets be honest, you may not control anything else in your life but you can control your snatch. You say when, where, who and what. I can see how easy it is to become addicted to sex, NO the control that comes with sex. Its so funny to see her attempt to wear the pants and cower when she encounters Rex!
"This was a mistake, she thought to herself.
Nervous, anxious, and confused, she knew this the moment she was waiting for with her condition. Fear outweighed the pleasure. She was scared shitless. Her heart was threatening to thump out of her chest, and she had no idea where she was. She always picked the location and here she was in some strange man’s home all because she couldn’t tell her body that this wasn’t a good idea.
“Strip,” she heard him command.
Sex isn't always the answer! If it is for you be SAFE and seek therapy. I believe there's always an underlying issue!
3. Flight Risk: a person thought likely to leave
She's a runner but from all the wrong things and people. She got on my nerves with that shit. Like sis let that man love you, seriously.
I understood her apprehension but she gave Corik a chance, give my man Rex a chance he totally deserved it. But like most of us, we shy away from anything that's different. All the bad relationships literally ruin us and make us question everyone's behavior, motives and actions forever!
Corik lame a** had it easy, all he had to do was show up and pursue. He didn't put in any real work. She deserved the real work Rex put in. He hacked her entire life, just to get a glimpse of who she really was not who she wanted everyone to see.
“Aye, tell me the scoop on your girl.”
“Rex, you know that you can get more information on her from that little computer than I can tell you. What do you really want?”
“I want her, and I need your help.”
“What can I do?”
“Just a number, for now, I can do the rest.”
“She is going to kill me.”
“She will get over it, trust me,” Rex promised. He knew he could be charming and captivating with his conversation alone. Plus Cheyanne owed him for doing this IT work on a whim.
“Sent,” Chey grunted disconnecting.
Quit running from love, real love!
4. Author: a writer of a book, article, or report.
Writing for her it was the same for many authors, "Free Therapy". Her ability to express herself had been stripped from her at a young age, which is a terrible thing. When your freedom of expression is removed what are you? who are you?
She was nothing without her writing, without her expression. She had dreams and she only needed someone to believe in her, believe that she was more than a low level receptionist. She wanted more, she wanted to capture hearts and change the world with her writing. Sound Familiar?
“With my help, you will be. Cheyanne told me all about your blogs and how dedicated you are. I need that on my team. Stay consistent and persistent and I promise you will make it,” Nako replied sliding her card over.
Serene wanted to jump out of her seat. This was the best damn surprise ever. She was sitting at the table with none other the creator, CEO, Girl Boss, and entrepreneur, Nako.
Cheyanne believed in her!We all need someone that believes in our dreams. Take a leap of faith, get you a support team and smash those goals.
5. Grief: deep sorrow, especially that caused by someone's death.
I touch on grief in the book because its REAL, losing someone you love throws your life out of control. You recluse, nothing makes sense anymore. You begin to question everything. Its complicated. Grief is like an onion you have to peel back the layers and sometimes you cant get to the next layer without addressing the one you are on.
Her season of grief on top of everything else she had going on is what allowed the title of "Serene Chaos" on the outside she looked like she had it all together. She was said to be beautiful and alluring but deep inside there was always the need for validation, the need to feed her addiction, and the need to run.
“It’s just the atmosphere, we are on this beautiful island full of romance. You won’t want that back in the States, and it’s cool. Plus, I don’t even know if I can trust you or if you are here to hurt me like everyone else. And honestly, I don’t want to find out. I like you as a friend and I don’t want that to end.”
“I’m not here to hurt or punish you. Let me love you, Strange. I don’t even know what I’m doing half the time, holding hands and shit, kissing in the streets, holding bags, feeding you fruit, taking care of you while you sick. I’m going with the flow and if it feels right, so I’m doing it. For you.”
Fleeing back to her hotel suit leaving Rex there with his heart in his hand. She wasn’t ready for what he was ready for. She hadn’t grieved for the recent shit she had been through. She had to grieve and get it out of her system before she gave Rex what he wanted and what she wanted. She was running out of excuses.
So you've been provided with excerpts and an explanation of Serene and whats makes her a calm storm. I loved writing this story so much and we are on track to drop PT II soon. And i'm equally excited about that also.
If you know a Serene, give them a hug today, encourage them and tell them you are proud, tell them things will be OK!
Again thank you all for rocking with me, sharing my link, leaving a review. It's you that makes this fulfilling, its you that makes me continue writing!